The "wow" moment
i know they say one single point in life can't be life changing. the thing is though transformative moments are like threshold activation energy, x-2 to x-1 matters as much as the final +1 to get x.
this day is pretty important to me. this is the day i accept that i have no ||other|| problems other than chronic migraine. it takes a lot of mental effort to accept it and just focus on the tools at my disposal. neurologist mentioned that my brain is now hard wired to feel pain at all times, in order to break the cycle, i have to get on and start doing stuff- i should not be afraid of the pain. i should not be measuring pain on the scales of how much it hurts but on the scale of how much it effects me from doing what i want to do.
so now comes the obvious question: what do i want to do? well- the whole jee prep is not actually a "waste" anyways. the past few years, since 2020 has been a transforming thing in my life in a way, it made me realise what truly matters in life.
One thing is for sure though- my path is in no way "ideal", well- then how can it make it to a documentary lmao; interesting paths taken, create interesting stories.
the world is def a lot smaller than i thought it was. there are people with so many different stories and struggles but the interesting aspect is that most of us live the "same lives". the similarities are just too much- after all we are living in the same time, we are the same species and we are living on the same planet floating totally alone in space. of course, we are living the same lives.